“Who’d you rather be? The Beatles or the Rolling Stones?”

That song, Gimme Sympathy by one of my favourite bands of all eternity, Metric, has been in my head all day. Not gonna lie, I just had a little dance sesh with my iPod and that song just moments ago. It has completely nothing to do with my blog entry whatsoever, but eff, is it ever a good song :)

Breakfast

Oatmeal Crisp cereal with soy milk, bluleberries and walnuts.

Lunch

Kashi Organic Cinnamon Harvest with yoghurt, raisins and a banana.

Dinner

100g chicken breast, 1/2 cup of buckwheat and cooked broccoli & carrots.

Today something wierd happened. Wierd-good. I usually have snacks between meals, naturally. But today between snacks, I had a funny feeling in my stomach that I hadn’t had in a while. I sat there for a while thinking, “Fuck, indigestion strikes again”. Then I realized, I’M HUNGRY. So what did I do? I just got up and had an unplanned, impromptu Snack! But I didn’t get up and have a celery stick, or low-cal anything. I had one of my former “forbidden foods”. Just like that! This made me so happy that I decided to photograph it!

Snack!

Peanut butter! On wholemeal!

I remember in the midst of my eating disorder looking through my cupboards for low-fat, low-cal foods, grabbing a jar of PB and thinking “I can never have this again”. How fucking sick is that?? This is why this means so much to me. I just decided to have a sandwich slathered with this forbidden substance (okay, a tablespoon…but a damn hearty one!).

Today I worked both my jobs back-to-back. It was wildly exhausting, but I’m just happy to be employed. I’m still looking for something to replace my retail job though. I get super exhausted on my feet for so many hours and the packing of foods for so many hours (both jobs) is really becoming a pain. I also find that when I either get up from my seat or get up from kneeling down I have these vertigos and get really light-headed. I have an interview for something tomorrow so we’ll see how that goes and maybe will find something better.

I’m hunting for a really nice fabric to make my new summer project, a skirt, out of. Today at work I was sorting linens and saw a really piece of fabric that I considered buying and making my skirt out of that, with my employee discount. Then I was reminded of that Jane Austin book (Sense and Sensibility???) where the girl makes the dress out of the curtain. Meh well it might work… ;P

I’m so tired and have to get up early to do my hair for my interview tomorrow morning. This shouldn’t be a problem as I haven’t been able to sleep in for Lord know how many months, but I always end up being exhausted and groggy if I atleast don’t go to sleep at a reasonable hour.

Nighty night.

– izzyyyy.